Something happens when this day comes every year. I see you in my dreams the nite before and then the morning comes. I'm reminded today that you would be three years old and four months. I find myself picturing how you'd look...how you would sound and what type of little person you would be now. And I cry and cry and cry til I can almost not breath anymore.

Almost abruptly i snap out of my daydreaming and try to focus on getting ready for work. But my Juju you just keep popping back into my thoughts whenever I have a second to myself. I go to the restroom and cry. Wipe away my tears . Go get coffee start to cry. Coworkers give sympathetic nods or a quick hug. They know too. They remember that day when I was frantic after getting the call about you.

on and off through this anniversary day this happens. I welcome the busy work so as not to think of you with sadness today. And finally the work day ends. And the drive home is all about Juliana thoughts. I can't wait til just before dark to send you kisses and hugs with the I Love U sky lantern.

Baby girl this is when time stands still every year. If only if only it could rewind and go back and you were still here. I love you my Juju. Please watch over your sister Gia and always keep her safe!

lots and lots of hugs n kisses
Nonni